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24 May 2012 @ 09:18 pm
It's probably the sugar  
Feeling a bit low tonight, and not from any one thing in particular but a combination of a few little things. Which, by themselves shouldn't upset me, but put them together and I sit prodding at my miseries like a sore tooth.

Had to get my eyes tested today as my glasses badly need updating. Not only that, but now I need glasses for driving as well as close work but apparently I can't use the same set with graduated lenses, and I'm still not sure I understand the reason why. Whatever, it meant I needed two sets. The optometrist's stock was pretty unappealing, I was on my lunch break and getting more and more frustrated with myself for having such trouble choosing something I liked - and the optometrist really wasn't helping by telling me to try the different frames on and check how they looked in the mirror.Hello, it meant taking my own glasses off which meant I couldn't see a bloody thing. Smartarse. Finally grabbed two frames that looked at least halfway decent, paid upfront for the whole thing and rushed back to my desk in time for my next appointment.
What I DIDN'T know until later, was that I could have simply taken my prescription to another eyewear shop and had it made up with frames that I did like, rather than choosing the best of a bad lot. *shrug* Stuck with them for at least two years now though.

My son's girlfriend got the job she'd been after, and while I'm really really happy for her, it left me feeling miserable that I haven't heard back from the one I applied for recently, even though we had such a positive conversation over the phone at the time. I tried contacting the HR consultant yesterday, just to see if a decision had been made, but had to leave a message on her phone and she hasn't returned my call. :-(

I'm tired of not seeing the sun, too, and it's only late May. Another three months before the evenings will start being light again when I leave work.

And I don't think I'll make bonus this quarter because of my two weeks' holiday planned for next month. I'll settle enough in dollars but my cross-sale points won't be sufficient to qualify; I'm likely to finish the quarter on around 1500 points, which was the target prior to this quarter when it went up to 2000 points. That's a lot of extra insurances to sell.

First world problems, yeah, complaining from a position of white person privilege. I think I'll shut up now.
byslantedlight: better Days (snarkyllama)byslantedlight on May 24th, 2012 11:36 am (UTC)
Just cos other people have other things to deal with doesn't mean you're not allowed to feel sad and grumpy about what you have to deal with! There's always going to be people worse off than you, and vice versa too!

Hope it all looks up soon...
miwahni: Pros ani sighmiwahni on May 25th, 2012 10:25 am (UTC)
Thanks for that... *g* sometimes it just helps for me to write it all down and then I can start putting it in perspective.
Strike while the irony is hot: [EMATE] HUGS C'MEREdraycevixen on May 24th, 2012 12:11 pm (UTC)

I'm sorry, petal. ♥ *squishes you*

I think sometimes it's the hodgepodge of little things that gets us down more than one major thing as we seem less able to do much about it.

The HR person might be out, or they might be close to a decision and so want to wait a bit... it could be any number of things. I'm sorry about the sales, but at least you'll be on holiday.

As to the glasses, is it too late to call and cancel them? MG's sister did that once.

Have you read anything about Seasonal Affective Disorder?
miwahni: Pros I need a holidaymiwahni on May 25th, 2012 10:31 am (UTC)
Squishy hugs much appreciated... you're right, it's all the little things that sometimes just seem too much.
I'm hoping you're right about the HR person. We had such a positive conversation - I can only hope that she's still dealing with applications.

I actually decided I would cancel the glasses this morning, but then my boss turned up in my branch so I couldn't duck out - and by lunchtime I'd actually come to terms with the glasses. They aren't horrible, I just hate feeling rushed and pressured. I'm sure I'll love them when I pick them up.

I have read about SAD (what an appropriate acronym, really!) previously but I don't think I'm *quite* that bad. Winter does get me down though. It was interesting reading about the light boxes, and I found a site that helps you work out when the use of a light box would be most beneficial. My "best time" is 7.30am; only trouble is that during the week I'm on a bus at that time, and on the weekend that time simply doesn't exist *g*. Might need to do some re-thinking.
rosie55rosie55 on May 26th, 2012 05:39 pm (UTC)
I always feel a bit like that in winter so I sympathise. We are now less than a month from our longest day here in the UK so I am enjoying the long summer days and dreading the day when the evenings start drawing in!

As to new specs though, I once cancelled an order in similar circumstances when I came away feeling I had been bounced into choosing something when in reality thre wasn't anything I liked. And - just a thought - the other place that you can buy proper prescription specs now is online - and some of them are amazing value. Since you now have an up-to-date prescription, you could have a hunt around and maybe you could treat yourself to a pretty pair of at least reading glasses to cheer yourself up, without breaking the bank or having to wait two years! I think some websites even have a facility where you can upload a pic of yourself and then see what the specs look like on yourself!

Hope your holiday makes up for your current stresses!

Edited at 2012-05-26 05:41 pm (UTC)
miwahni: UK Stonehengemiwahni on May 28th, 2012 09:50 am (UTC)
Thanks for the advice; I'm going to have a look around online and see what I can find. I am coming to terms with the glasses I chose, they're not horrible, really, I think partly I just have making decisions! *g*

We are now less than a month from our longest day here in the UK
I was amazed at how long your summer days last! 10pm and still - barely - light enough to see outside. Winter must be the pits though. We don't have anywhere near the variations in day length (or in temperature!) that you experience in the UK.