I felt funny walking out of work yesterday; in previous years there's been a huge feeling of relief that we'd made it to the end of another year, coupled with a desire to get absolutely plastered. I had none of that yesterday and it took a while to work out why (okay I never said I was the sharpest tool in the shed! *g*) - the 31st December is also the end of the first quarter in the financial year for the bank I used to work for, so you'd have this huge "thank god that's over" feeling for the end of the quarter. And then today of course everything is reset and here-we-go-again.
I am so glad to be off that roundabout. I don't wake up at 3am worrying about my targets, I don't toss and turn wondering how I'm going to make up missing sales, I don't have that constant feeling that if I stop just once to smell the roses I'll get run over. Sure, I work hard in my new job, and it's busy, but it's not the same pressure. I don't ever want to go back to that again.
So this year will be my year of gratitude. I've got hold of a little notebook, and every day I plan to write down at least one thing I'm grateful for - it will be fun to look back at the end of the year.