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17 May 2014 @ 10:37 am
This is what has made me happy  
It's been five months now since I started my current job, and my probation is due to end at the beginning of June. Thing is, I was convinced that I wasn't going to make it off probation, as I've made some mistakes that have had ramifications. And it was hard, learning that I'm not the hot stuff I thought I was - a bit of a reality check, really. So, for the last few months, I've been just waiting for the hammer to fall.

So yesterday, when the head of credit came over to my desk and pulled up a chair, saying he wanted to have a chat, I was mentally preparing myself to pack up my desk and walk out the door (I've already been taking personal items home, to make the last day that little bit easier). No-one was more surprised than me when he said that he had been assessing the work I've been doing, and is going to give me my DLA - that is, the discretion to approve loans without them having to be checked by anyone else. Seriously I had been expecting the worst so this just knocked me off my feet. He still wants me to run more complex deals past him first, and I'm okay with that.

Came home last night and drew a card from my Wildwood deck. I drew the six of arrows, which talks about abundance, about reaping the rewards of my hard work over summer. As I started this job right at the beginning of summer I thought the card rather appropriate.
Current Mood: relievedrelieved
miwahni: Pros Make you happymiwahni on May 19th, 2014 10:01 am (UTC)
I think I'm my harshest critic, sometimes. I've come from a job where I knew it inside out and backwards, and in fact was often asked to help train new staff, and suddenly I'm the newbie making all the mistakes... I had expectations of myself that in hindsight weren't realistic I guess.